Have you ever felt like you had so much on your heart that you needed to share it with the world or you would burst open? Literally BURST? I am taking a big leap of faith here to be vulnerable with you. Yes YOU! To share my heart and the innermost workings of my soul on a public website. But doing this means you will critique me, and debate me, and maybe not be happy with my thoughts. And for a “Good Girl” (Grace for the Good Girl, by Emily Freeman), that is terrifying!! You may read my words here and think, “I don’t agree with that, what is this girl smoking?” And while I live in Colorado, I can assure you I am not smoking anything here…bad joke? Too much? On with the people pleasing.
My husband and I just recently celebrated our five year anniversary. And while some may think we are still just babies, we have experienced our fair share of life in those five years. Six months into our marriage, we moved far from our friends and family in New York, first to Virginia and then to Colorado. We have endured two deployments apart from each other. Two LONG deployments in which we both had to face some of our biggest fears. We have experienced the frustrations that come along with watching friend after friend get pregnant so easily and quickly, and have also experienced the great loss of a miscarriage. There was also a point in our marriage that I didn’t think we would make it. A point in my mind where divorce sounded easier. Where I could just escape from all my problems and all of this hardship and life would be easier than it is now. Right?
No way! What made us ever think that life is supposed to be easy? That we won’t experience hardships? Why do we think that the sole purpose of marriage is to make us happy? Why do we put so much pressure on ourselves, or our family, or friends, to meet these insane and unrealistic expectations we hold over them?
While I can assure you I do not have all of the answers, I do know one thing: We live in a world full of sin and brokenness. And as long as we live in this world, we will experience hardship (John 16:33). We will experience miscarriages and troubles in our relationships. We will experience great loss and be forced to face our biggest fears. But it doesn’t end there, oh no my friend. It continues by saying, “But take heart; for I have overcome the world.” Take heart because there is hope! The Good News is that God sent his son Jesus into the world to die the death that we should have suffered (John 3:16) so that we can see light and hope in the midst of our trials and experience a full life with Him.
“We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.” Romans 5:3-5
Friends, life is never going to be void of hardships. But I know that Jesus Christ is my hope, and hope will not lead to disappointment. The Lord is showing me more of His Glory in every trial that I face and I am dedicating this website to share those moments with you, to hopefully be an encouragement to you as you face hardships. Know that you are not alone!
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