There are so many unknowns in life that can eat away at us. They can consume your every thought. They can make us anxious. Sleep-deprived. On edge. And if you’re at all like me, you like to prepare as much as possible for what’s coming next. It helps to put my mind at ease thinking that I have some control in my life.
My husband and I spent the last couple months doing all sorts of pregnancy testing, and are anxiously awaiting the results to find out what comes next. At the same time, my husband has only 5 more months until he transitions out of the Army and into the “real” world. So we daily ask ourselves questions like, where will we be living in five months? Are we going to stay here or move out of state? Will he even have a job come January? We sure hope so.
Those are two huge areas of disruption in our life, and they are things you can’t just walk away from mentally, even though we know we can’t do anything about either of them. So then what do we do when we are faced with such disruption that we can not do anything about? When we don’t have any control? Over trying to start a family? Or trying to figure out what job my husband will have, if any?
“So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” (Matthew 6:31-34).
The future is not our burden to worry about! God already has a plan, and it is perfect and it will bring Him glory! Our job is to seek Him more ad more every day. Every life-disruption that throws us out of the stream like a fish out of water, should remind us of our need for a Savior. Seek Him out, depend on Him more, and trust that His plan is for His glory. God wants us to live in the moment, not live I fear or worry of what tomorrow holds. He will give us the answers we are looking for. He will provide everything we need. And guess what? We don’t need to know those answers or have those things ahead of time. Sometimes, the answers are not clear to us until the last possible moment. And friend, that is OK! God is calling each one of us to lean into our faith and our dependency on Him in the day-to-day when we feel like that fish out of water and we don’t know what’s coming next.
What is it that you are depending on? Is it security? Provision? Your future? A family? None of these things are going to fulfill your heart the way God does. These things will fail you over and over again. If these are the things that we search for to make our hearts fulfilled, we will be let down. Constantly. But learning to step into the unknown and depend on the Lord brings unfathomable peace and understanding. Dependency on Him is the only thing that get’s us back into the peace of the stream. “For this is what the Lord says: I will extend peace to her like a river, and the wealth of nations like a flooding stream” (Isaiah 66:12).